13st11
stayed the same this week
10lbs lost
3st11lbs to go
I was pleased that I stayed the same this week. Wouldn’t that be great if this marked a plateau, a turning point, and that i started to get it together and start to lose again?!
I’m still feeling quite low and quite despondent about my weight. But I’ve realised that comfort eating is a huge factor in this. So I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to try to concentrate on increasing my wellbeing and supporting my emotions rather than be continually beating myself up and thinking of bad foods and good foods and all that stuff.
So I’m making a positive effort to do more of the things I enjoy- such as photography, art and craft, and getting out twise a week for a walk. The walks are great- they really ground me and of course by being more active I’m also burning calories and beginning to build muscle.
Sure, it’s a small start- my ME means I walk very slowly, but I think the sense of wellbeing it produces is definately healing and supportive. I went for a walk yesterday. Only for an hour, and after I was exhausted. But I enjoyed it and felt more engaged and connected than I have done for a while.
The downside of this was that, having spent my day’s energy on a small walk, I didn’t make it to weightwatchers yet again. But I think that right now, with all this beating-up of myself, going to meeting really isn’t particularly affirming or constructive. I would only have felt a failure, sitting there knowing how much weight I’d gained since my last visit.
Instead I was walking round the woods, focussed on making art, and on being good to myself.
We’ll see if this increased activity and focus on my creative side reduces my need to comfort-eat.
