It’s been a while… a very long while.
I weighed myself yesterday. I was 16 stone 9. And I wasn’t surprised. I’ve been gaining steadily right through my relapse. The biggest relapse of my life. I’ve been off work for 5 months now. Five months of struggle, struggle to get better, to eat well, to keep positive. And I say struggle, because a lot of the time I haven’t managed those things.
During this time, I’ve turned my back on dieting. My naturopath suggested a book called ‘Intuitive eating’. It reinforced the messages that I first recieved from Pete, of listening to my body, heeding my hunger signals, and, crucially, stopping eating when full. That book started a subtle shift in my focus, away from weightwatchers and traditional diets, towards a much more, yes, intuitive process of listening to the innate, but supressed, wisdom of my body.
In spite of this, I still found it incredibly difficult to stop eating when full, and to avoid eating when not hungry. At a certain point of despair, I posted on my ME support group forum, and a few friends suggested I try the Paul McKenna method.
Paul’s principles run along the same lines as those of Pete and the authors of Intuitive Eating. But five weeks in, I was, yet again, knowing the principles, but not really adhering to them. I was aware that I was full, but carried on eating. And I was aware that I started eating quite often BEFORE I was hungry.
So… I decided that as of today, I would start sharing my journey again. I am taking advantage of a slight improvement in my energy levels, which seems to be SO key in my life. Without the energy, my brain doesn’t want to function, my body is tired, and changing my habits is the last thing on my mind.
So here I am. Feel free to join me in the ride.
